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I never really told you
How much I cannot bear
I never really thought
That you would actually care
I suffered through in silence
For so many years
I knew I’d be long gone
Before anybody hears
Hears my cries of anguish
As I cry throughout the night
Or sees the pain behind my eyes
As I fight this endless fight
I knew you could have seen it
I didn’t hide it well
I guess I had some wish
You’d help me as I fell
I couldn’t ask directly
I was too afraid to try
That’s why I’m now writing
My one and last goodbye
I just have to tell you
I had no other end
There was no way to help me
No matter what you lend
I fell for far too long
No longer in your reach
Happiness is something
That you just cannot teach
It may have ended different
If I was not alone
But the simple fact and truth
I was always on my own
I may have had a roof
Was rarely without food
But when it came to mental
What is it you conclude?
A person needs support
To know that someone’s there
They need to know there’s someone
That will truly care
I never had that person
Who offered me their hand
To stop me from falling
Before the brutal land
Instead I kept on falling
Going straight on through
Now I know my ending
Though I think I already knew
Don’t blame yourself for blindness
Or for an ear turned deaf
Don’t you blame yourself one second
For my untimely death
Even if you saw it
It would have been too late
Everybody dies
Early was just my fate
I am better off
Don’t morn me for too long
So I’ll say my last goodbye
Even though I’m already gone
A. Heimby
June 2, 2013